Okay. First day of my new attitude. And it's even more difficult than I thought. We're one person down, everybody is complaining about too much work, but nobody gives me something to do. Well, except my bosses. But they give me things, that are finished much too fast. No, I won't complain. Not about them.
A letter has vanished. And they assumed, that it was my fault. But I have put it, where I was supposed to put it. I know it, because I am very careful, when it comes to work and property of others. How can I proe it? I have no idea. For now, no one has doubted me. But I fear, they will, when the letter doesn't show up in the next days. I hate nothing more, than being called a liar. so, we eill see, how that will go.
My brain is still an ass. It gives me stupid, negative thoughts. And my collegues don't help. They talk about shoes, about sleep, about dumb things. I have tried, but I can't participate in their useless chatter. I don't have anything to say to them.
I can feel, that the more I stay quiet, the more they think I'm wierd. And I don't have a problem with that. But it prevents me from working at my full capacity. Because they won't let me. And that's frustrating.
Til now, I haven't found a way to cope with this situation. But it's only the first day. So, lots of time to improve...
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